I have been soaking in some self-helf-y-ness. This doesn’t mean that I’ve given up on politics, far from it. I was ranting earlier in the shower about how my generation won’t be able to say “I’ve worked hard” because, hello, there are no jobs; and how that constitutes “externalising the costs” and passing them to the workers.
So yes, politics is still there, but I need to focus on helping myself at the moment. Because I need the strength to find an income and a roof above my head and let’s face it: I can’t wait until the economy recovers, or the Tories are no longer in power, or worse, “The Revolution Cometh”. I need to sort out my life now.
You know how I’m always going on about “coming up with a different way to do politics”? Well, this is it. I mean, this is the moment when I’ll find out this “different way”. Because I need it now, and I can’t wait for it any longer.
Don’t ask me how that would work, because I have absolutely no idea.
I’m guessing it will involve this:
* A different language, one that is less confrontational and less “angry”.
* More compassion, patience, caring.
* Acknowledging the pain and troubles of the world without ending up paralyzed and unable to move. (Ahem.)
* Solving the conflict of “The personal is political” and “the political is personal”.
So I’m going to start experimenting here on the blog. Sometimes there will be politics… sometimes there will be personal stuff. And hopefully, something will change, either in me or the world or both.
Earlier on today, a woman in a much better place than me was starting her Sunday having tea and cake.
At this very moment, I am also having tea and cake. Well… pie.
It’s important for me to remember that even though I am going through the toughest time of my life, I and she don’t live in different worlds. Even if sometimes it feels that way.
Yes, things are unbelievably hard right now. But one day I hope to enjoy a similar level of safety and comfort as she has. And it’s important to remind myself that her reality is within my reach, because it’s within the same planet.
Also, it appears to be a yoga practice. So I’m doing it, even if I don’t understand its benefit fully.